There is hope... I hope so.

I have always acted on the assumption that if I did good things, good things will happen to me.
I still believe it to a certain extent but the world is really turning out to be a shitload of well shit...

I walk around filled with hatred and jealousy with all the imperfections of the world glaring back at me, I can't help but wish I could change them all.
Why did this guy get to be so good looking? Why does this other guy get to be that rich?
How can that girl be so happy? Why aren't I that happy?!

Telling yourself to let go of all the things you have no control of was a good idea but for the present its been kinda hard implementing it. I know I should strive harder to change the things that are in my power but traveling alone in an already long and lonely path trying to right all the wrong in my life is just sometimes so overwhelming to the extent that the temptation of giving up is so hard to resist.

When did I turn so bitter and started to hate the very life that use to bring so much joy and hope to me....

Give it time and I will continue to learn and be a better and stronger man...

Trust that I can.