Monday, May 31, 2010

There is hope... I hope so.


I have always acted on the assumption that if I did good things, good things will happen to me.
I still believe it to a certain extent but the world is really turning out to be a shitload of well shit...

I walk around filled with hatred and jealousy with all the imperfections of the world glaring back at me, I can't help but wish I could change them all.
Why did this guy get to be so good looking? Why does this other guy get to be that rich?
How can that girl be so happy? Why aren't I that happy?!

Telling yourself to let go of all the things you have no control of was a good idea but for the present its been kinda hard implementing it. I know I should strive harder to change the things that are in my power but traveling alone in an already long and lonely path trying to right all the wrong in my life is just sometimes so overwhelming to the extent that the temptation of giving up is so hard to resist.

When did I turn so bitter and started to hate the very life that use to bring so much joy and hope to me....

Give it time and I will continue to learn and be a better and stronger man...

Trust that I can.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Not who but when.


I don't get love sometimes... The deeper you believe in it the harder you fall when it all comes crashing down...

Do we really have a perfect half that makes us whole or are we just lonely beings who need someone to call ours...

Love's a funny thing....
Maybe its not who you meet... but more when you meet...

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Now perhaps?


Time crawls when the only thing you're waiting for never shows,
and the hope that keeps us waiting is but an empty shell of false expectations.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

You never did notice.


The smallest of details is what makes the world go around.
yet you always miss every discrete detail that would have made all the difference.

A tear overlooked in the haste of your actions brings a rush of emotions that keeps nagging endlessly.

If I had told you what you missed, would you act otherwise?
Tell me you would.

Friday, May 21, 2010

The day it all changed.


It was a hot shiny day and by the whim of my heart I took to the beaches in search of some private time away from all that was not right with the world.
Strolling across the beaches with the wind grazing me with its constant presence as it rushed through my hair occasionally accompanied by the unwelcome streams of sand, I was content with life till the very moment where out of nowhere a young lady came crashing down upon me knocking the both of us down.
Never had I seen such beautiful eyes staring back at me which glowed even brighter then the burning sun hovering just above her in the distance. Buried under her weight and lost in her eyes, my heart throbbed like never before.

Little did I know that this was the girl that would change my life as I helped her up and tried to convince her over and over again through her sincere yet shy apologies that all was fine.But my heart knew...

As she threaded across the sands to return to her friends, I couldn't help but called out to her,
cause even I know you don't meet someone this special everyday.