My mind and heart.

My mind and heart;
are tearing me apart.

I'm sorry for I am weak.

I'm sorry for what I have become.
The pain inside that tears away at me is but a pain I have tried so hard to remove yet I am face with an unmovable wall of sorrow that traps my heart in its grip.

I long so much to truly hold you yet I cannot bear to put myself at risk for loving you means strapping a target on my back and praying you don't pull the trigger.

I am but a shell of my former self for I have sunk so slow beneath the depths of sorrow that every breath I take escapes me.

Leave me be if you're not willing to take the plunge to save me from this dark waters.
but if you choose to jump, do it with an unshakable intent that no measure of doubt can prevail.

I'm sorry.

A simple quote.

I walked a mile with Pleasure;
She chatted all the way;
But left me none the wiser
For all she had to say.

I walked a mile with Sorrow,
And ne'er a word said she;
But, oh! The things I learned from her,
When Sorrow walked with me.

ROBERT BROWNING HAMILTON

If only I could.

If you make me yours,
I'll make you mine.

When it happens... You'll know.

Don't be so eager to throw yourself at the next decent person you meet....
Don't be so eager for love to happen...
cause when it does... You'll know...
Just have a little faith... Its worth the wait.

*Just wished it would hurry up tho*

Here we go round and round~

Have you ever felt like you're not going anywhere? The feeling like you're no different now than you were yesterday or last week or even last year?

Its like I'm not moving forward! Staying stationary or going round in circles and getting nowhere! Its just as if someone up there is rocking me around with his little finger and can't make up his mind on where he should move me next!

My reply to the higher power upstairs! GET ON WITH IT! I ain't got all millenia you know!

I need a break, a vacation...Time to myself and a place to break out of this miserable pattern of Déjà vu!


Q : Why couldn't the good times last this long?
A : Life was still a bitch last time I checked~

Do you even see me?

I miss you whenever your not around...
yet.. when I'm with you, I feel lonely still...