It was planned right from the very beginning.

The breath that took away your heart no longer resides in the very same person where it originated from...

Although lost, there is hope that it can be found...
someday...

Who What Where Why When?!

Where is the wrong in doing something bad if the only person you hurt is yourself?

What if the hurt from doing the wrong thing doesn't hurt as much as doing the right thing?

Who would know if you cheated along the way of healing your broken heart as long as it healed?

Why should the pain of heartache take away simple pleasures that once made you happy even if isn't the right thing to do?
and,
When will my broken heart ever heal if it ever will.....

Where are you?

All I have to give is the love in my heart yet I find noone to give it to.

Find a reason to smile the next time you find yourself not smiling.

Broken hearts and broken dreams are but a few of the many many things wrong with our lives!

But hey, tomorrow still comes and goes no matter what happens to you.
When bad things happen, the world seems so dark and grey yet if you take a look around you.... I'm pretty sure you can find someone smiling, so go out and see the world! The world hasn't changed, its your view on the world that has changed!

Stop feeling sorry for yourself and lock yourself away in the dungeons of your room and go out! Talk to people! There is so much more to the world and life that you haven't even started to experience!

Life has many chapters and your current chapter is only one of many many wonderful chapters in the course of your long and winding journey through life!

So ask yourself....
Whats the point in living if all you do is waste it?

A quiet birthday that made me happy.

April 14th

I just turned 20 today~
There were no celebrations, no cakes, no presents.
It was a quiet birthday that passed by ever so silently but was filled with many many blessed wishes~ =)

But truth be told....
I was happy...

My birthday is not something I look forward to...
This year tho, I was determined to be happy!
It didn't matter what happens on your birthday...
Its how happy u make it...
You could have the biggest party and receive the best presents ever but if at the end of the night you're forced to fake a smile when you feel like your surrounded by a wave of strangers and you know you should be happy but deep down you know your not....
It hurts....

So I laid down on my bed with my heart opened up to the skies and with hope and a quiet calmness that has been absent ever so long.... My birthday passed me by as silently as it came....
I am thankful~

There's nothing worse than knowing you'll never be good enough

What can I do if I am nothing to you?

Tell me what to do and allow me the opportunity to accomplish your heart's desires even if I am to fail oh so miserably.

Life is a journey of decisions

When I was young, the world didn't seem to big and so uninviting. Everyday was a new opportunity to learn and explore new things, every step I took meant so much more back then. A lollipop could place the biggest of smiles on our face as the simplest of things brought the purest of happiness to us cause life then was so much more simple yet so so wonderful.

Then we grew up.....

Life became grey and complicated as we go through our days seeking for satisfaction and happiness that never could be found. We searched for happiness in all the wrong places and when something good came along, we choose to settle for what we can get and not what we really want thus giving up on all the dreams and ambitions our heart desired so long ago.


We give up on true love and settle for someone we like.
We give up our dreams for security.
We give up uniqueness for social acceptance.

And soon broken dreams and unsatisfied hearts fill our lives and the once so beautiful world crumples ever so slowly.

Life is a journey that is filled with many many paths, and at every fork comes with a decision to make. Every morning we wake up, a decision needs to be made but we have all fallen so deeply into routine that we don't even realize that we just made the decision to not make a change.

So I decided that life isn't gonna wait around waiting for me to make a change!

Its now or never!



What would you like to change bout your life today?

Happiness puts a smile on life

It all started at this year's CNY! The year of the tiger has not been kind to me.

List of unlucky events that plagued me.

1. The week before CNY, I was waiting in a line behind this car at a T junction and all of the sudden some girl on her motorbike crashes into me! Had to rush to KL to get a new bumper just so I wouldn't have a scratched up car for CNY!

2. Had an argument with my mum on the day I was going back to kampar, mummy didn't like it..... so... no money for me. Had to stop by the roadside to open my angpau's to pay for the toll! lol

3.Got back to Kampar after CNY just to find out I lost my gf to some other guy who she met during CNY at her hometown! Really heart broken!

4. Lady luck was nowhere near me this year as I lost and lost and continue to lose at every game I play!

Life really sucked the past month! But a few true friends namely my bro Yew Hau and my darling May brought me back into the light so I'm starting a new me!

A new life, a new beginning and a new chapter in life.

Sometimes the things we want aren't always the things we really need.

The new me says that happiness is the best thing to have in your life. It doesn't matter how fucked up your life maybe, its how happy you are with your fucked up life!
Cause the question to ask yourself isn't how much you got out of life but rather how happy were you with life.

No matter what happens, always try to find a reason to smile cause chances are there always ALWAYS is a reason.