Dull but enjoyable Christmas!

Christmas this year sucked real badly! Especially if you're spending in Cameron Highlands!
The whole place was utterly oblivious to the fact it was CHRISTMAS!!!

I had fun though! Met some crazy people while going up to a freezing tower in the middle of the night as the wind swept through! Read a really really nice book about love and the pain of living and love.

Hoping for a great New Year's Eve!!!!!

Trying to smile for a better tommorow.

I read somewhere the other day that if you're feeling lonely, listen more than you talk.
As you listen, you're filled with the wonders and beauties of life through different eyes.

Listen to their dreams, let it inspire you.
Listen to their sorrows, let it bring you hope.
Listen to their hearts, let it be a reminder that you are not alone.

All around people are moving on, yet I still find myself rooted at my feet.
I find happiness in their fortunes yet a sense of grieve lingers as I find myself the only one incapable of moving forward.

I am trying to listen, but I cannot hear.

The absence of love.

Everyone seems to have their own problems to deals with, yet it feels like the world is still being unfair. I've been in love before, I think I did, I hope I did.

The feeling where you can pour your heart out and give them your all is a feeling I've been missing of late. Loving someone is when you don't hold back. Giving them everything you can give and beyond.

Saying I love you use to mean
I give you my soul,
my body,
my today,
my tomorrow
and most of all my heart.

It use to mean I''m giving you my life because there is where it belongs,
in your hands forever.

I miss being in love.

A cry of loneliness.

Sometimes the world feels like its just too tough to continue on. Everyday waking up becomes a chore that is unbearable.

I'm not someone who has everything, I've worked hard to gain all that I have wanted. Yet, I find myself alone everyday wondering why people who do so much less have so much more.

Loneliness is a constant companion, wanting not to lose myself with a stranger for a night yet the search for someone special has taken its toll on me.

Yes I am alone, miserable and desperately lonely.