Wanting something to hold~

Its hard to hold on to love that hurts
but its harder still to have nothing to hold on to.

Tank's Confession

I can't make you love me if you don't.
You can't make your heart feel something it won't.

Valentines Day

Its Valentines Day everyone~

The time of year to make something special happen, where love is the topic on everyone's mind.

A time of celebration for couples and a time for opportunity for all the singles out there.

Happy Valentines Day~

Being one in a million

As we grow older and wiser it seems things get so complicated and harsh that it is so hard to get a definite answer. Not everything in life adds up as it should like 1 + 1 = 2.

You study hard you might still fail, you win the lottery of 1 million but take away all the taxes and whatever fees that come along at the end you don't really get a million do you.

Things are never as simple as it seems and if you ask me its kinda sad that it isn't.
Back when we were small, yes meant a yes, a no meant a no. Clear and simple. There weren't maybes or what ifs back then.

So should we stop dreaming of perfect endings and succumb to the pressures and standard that the society has set for us or should we strive for more?

For anyone that has did anything worth doing, the biggest fear was not being shunned by the society for being weird or "not normal" or whatever half ass reason you can think of. No, the biggest fear for people like these was failure itself. The fear of being unable to be the very best they could be.

Hold to your beliefs and not be ashamed of wanting more than what is normal given because being normal just means your roughly the same as the 999,999 people out of a million people out there and the last time I checked being one in a million was so much cooler.

The Great Annual Movement!

I took part in the GREAT MOVEMENT today!!! Where the whole of Malaysia was on the move! Everyone was rushing back with KL being the focus point. Car after car were facing KL as they made up a stream of long and winding snakes that stretched the roads leading to KL.

Proud to say I was part of it!!! FOR AN ASTONISHING 8 hours! OneMalaysia!!!

I was all hyped up in being part of the movement but my sis kept nagging and complaining endlessly for the entire 8 hours which kinda dampened the mood as new faces after new faces flashed by our windows to our right and you could even get to know people in the car to our left as we spent quite some time next to each other. My sis wasn't up to wishing them a Happy Chinese New Year let alone smiling to them which in my opinion was kind of self centered. :D

All in all I was pretty worn out after participating in this annual event but it was fun none the less!!!

Notes : I was basically stuck in the horrific Chinese New Year rush-back-home-jam as everyone made their way back to Kl to start work tomorrow!

School Starts!

Well, Man United just lost their first match of the season after going 10 months unbeaten.
That kinda sucks.

I'm going back to Kampar tomorrow but my mum and sis are trying to persuade me to go back on Monday cause we might be stuck in the jam as everyone rushes back home after the Chinese New Year holidays.

I've been spending all my time with my cousin this CNY and it was kinda fun. I taught him to drive his first manual car!!! He hurt my car pretty badly but at least we made it out alive, car and all.

I hope to write more as it seems there are still people visiting. :)

Chinese New Year

Its chinese new year everyone, and I'm here 4am in the morning cause sleep has eluded me currently.

Its a new year and a new beginning I guess, but looking back on the year I've grown in some ways and regressed in others.

To be honest, I'm kinda afraid of moving forward. The uncertainty ahead looks uninviting and I've been procrastinating for far too long yet I see no real urgency in changing that to the dismay of several individuals close to me that look at me with disapproval.

Time... Some may say I've been wasting it away but time flies forward in a constant manner but you are the pilot.

So for now,I'm cruising above the skies enjoying the view and taking a step back to evaluate and to determine the route to my destination. Just because I haven't been moving forward doesn't mean I've been idle.

Dull but enjoyable Christmas!

Christmas this year sucked real badly! Especially if you're spending in Cameron Highlands!
The whole place was utterly oblivious to the fact it was CHRISTMAS!!!

I had fun though! Met some crazy people while going up to a freezing tower in the middle of the night as the wind swept through! Read a really really nice book about love and the pain of living and love.

Hoping for a great New Year's Eve!!!!!

Trying to smile for a better tommorow.

I read somewhere the other day that if you're feeling lonely, listen more than you talk.
As you listen, you're filled with the wonders and beauties of life through different eyes.

Listen to their dreams, let it inspire you.
Listen to their sorrows, let it bring you hope.
Listen to their hearts, let it be a reminder that you are not alone.

All around people are moving on, yet I still find myself rooted at my feet.
I find happiness in their fortunes yet a sense of grieve lingers as I find myself the only one incapable of moving forward.

I am trying to listen, but I cannot hear.

The absence of love.

Everyone seems to have their own problems to deals with, yet it feels like the world is still being unfair. I've been in love before, I think I did, I hope I did.

The feeling where you can pour your heart out and give them your all is a feeling I've been missing of late. Loving someone is when you don't hold back. Giving them everything you can give and beyond.

Saying I love you use to mean
I give you my soul,
my body,
my today,
my tomorrow
and most of all my heart.

It use to mean I''m giving you my life because there is where it belongs,
in your hands forever.

I miss being in love.

A cry of loneliness.

Sometimes the world feels like its just too tough to continue on. Everyday waking up becomes a chore that is unbearable.

I'm not someone who has everything, I've worked hard to gain all that I have wanted. Yet, I find myself alone everyday wondering why people who do so much less have so much more.

Loneliness is a constant companion, wanting not to lose myself with a stranger for a night yet the search for someone special has taken its toll on me.

Yes I am alone, miserable and desperately lonely.

Haha!

Careful who you insult.

Shocking revelation!

It turns out! I do have a life! Shocking I know~
haha So what better way to tell the whole world of this astounding find!!
and yes, my world is a little smaller compared to yours. :P

Its the last week of the semester break and guess what! My friend De Yang and his girlfriend Ivy came down for a visit!

So to prove I really do have a life, this post is gonna be like the ones you find on other countless blogs that tell you what they did on a certain day with a million pictures to show and are about half a page long. HAHAHAHA!

To start off, we went to Black Stone Beach as we were invited by the ultra busy Quek and the super genius Dennis on the day that they arrived here in humble old Kuantan.


Basically its a stretch of beach littered with black rocks.

That night however, we woke up early! 4am!!!!
cause we were going up Panorama Hill in Sungai Lembing with the goal of watching the world come awake up above.

BUT!!! it was really cloudy that day so we didn't get to see much after quite a hike up the hill and just so you know, all three of us are nowhere near fit enough.



As the sun continued to rise, it revealed a magnificent view of the surrounding mountains and mist that took our breathes away. The clouds below us was just a sight to behold.







Deyang and Ivy posing at the steps.


All in all, it was a really nice trip.We completed the day with a trip into town before going back home to a home cooked crab dinner prepared by mum! Yeah us!

It seems I do have a life! hahahaha.

Getting to know yourself!

Every person has its own traits and personality.
It makes us who we are and how we react and most of all SPECIAL!

I found this nice little web that helps determine your personality types based on Myers-Brigss Type Indicator!

Get to know yourself better!!

Be sure to check out the links below after you've done the test to find out what is really means!!

Especially the last one " Relationship info based on your type" :P

Have FUN!!! CLICK HERE!!!

Doing nothing. ( LAME!!! )

The sun was out and crawling through the curtains. A young man fast asleep would soon be awaken to another day. 'Ray!!!! Time to get up! Its almost noon!' cried his mother as she came storming up to his room.

Half and hour later, Ray found himself sitting at his usual place in front of the computer as he went through his daily routine of checking his Facebook and other internet activities.

My life is boring. I'm no different albeit having a larger belly to the old me a year ago. He admitted silently in his heart. 'I gotta change! I have to make a change! I'm wasting my life away like this,' he said.

One week later,
A month,
A year.
Nothing changed.

Ray was all talk, he knew what he had to do yet he never got down to doing it.
That's why he is known to many as,

Lazy Ray.

Harden not your heart.

Harden not your hearts in the face of adversity,
open it further for love comes unexpectedly.

Enrique Iglesias - I Like It

Enrique showing you the sexy side of doing something naughty!

A true friend.

A friend is something special.
A friend is someone you depend on, someone who knows you better than everyone else.

A friend is someone who does what you can't do and leaves you to do what he can't do.

Everyone should at least have one.
Cause a friend is what everyone needs.

Insercurity has me running scared.

Every morning that comes brings about a new day.
yet it feels no different from yesterday.

Hoping for a better tomorrow yet when tomorrow comes, nothings changed.

Being but a fool wanting a new beginning in the midst of never taking a step forward.

A fool running from the past ;
hiding in the present ;
scared of the future.

Having the courage to get back up!

Have you had your heart teared apart so badly that you wished you never met the one who tore it?
Its a feeling that only a few can describe and comprehend.

Will it ever heal? Will we be always haunted by it till we are unable to cast it aside and love again? Who knows?
but
For me, being able to be hurt so badly by a single person is something to be proud of.
For it shows that you fell, you fell deeply into the depths of love.

Cause it is because you loved that you could be harmed,
and being able to love is the most magical thing there is.

We just need to find the courage to do it again, and not let the past stop us.

Have the courage to fall again and hope this time that special someone catches you.