Wanting something to hold~

Its hard to hold on to love that hurts
but its harder still to have nothing to hold on to.

Tank's Confession

I can't make you love me if you don't.
You can't make your heart feel something it won't.

Valentines Day

Its Valentines Day everyone~

The time of year to make something special happen, where love is the topic on everyone's mind.

A time of celebration for couples and a time for opportunity for all the singles out there.

Happy Valentines Day~

Being one in a million

As we grow older and wiser it seems things get so complicated and harsh that it is so hard to get a definite answer. Not everything in life adds up as it should like 1 + 1 = 2.

You study hard you might still fail, you win the lottery of 1 million but take away all the taxes and whatever fees that come along at the end you don't really get a million do you.

Things are never as simple as it seems and if you ask me its kinda sad that it isn't.
Back when we were small, yes meant a yes, a no meant a no. Clear and simple. There weren't maybes or what ifs back then.

So should we stop dreaming of perfect endings and succumb to the pressures and standard that the society has set for us or should we strive for more?

For anyone that has did anything worth doing, the biggest fear was not being shunned by the society for being weird or "not normal" or whatever half ass reason you can think of. No, the biggest fear for people like these was failure itself. The fear of being unable to be the very best they could be.

Hold to your beliefs and not be ashamed of wanting more than what is normal given because being normal just means your roughly the same as the 999,999 people out of a million people out there and the last time I checked being one in a million was so much cooler.

The Great Annual Movement!

I took part in the GREAT MOVEMENT today!!! Where the whole of Malaysia was on the move! Everyone was rushing back with KL being the focus point. Car after car were facing KL as they made up a stream of long and winding snakes that stretched the roads leading to KL.

Proud to say I was part of it!!! FOR AN ASTONISHING 8 hours! OneMalaysia!!!

I was all hyped up in being part of the movement but my sis kept nagging and complaining endlessly for the entire 8 hours which kinda dampened the mood as new faces after new faces flashed by our windows to our right and you could even get to know people in the car to our left as we spent quite some time next to each other. My sis wasn't up to wishing them a Happy Chinese New Year let alone smiling to them which in my opinion was kind of self centered. :D

All in all I was pretty worn out after participating in this annual event but it was fun none the less!!!

Notes : I was basically stuck in the horrific Chinese New Year rush-back-home-jam as everyone made their way back to Kl to start work tomorrow!

School Starts!

Well, Man United just lost their first match of the season after going 10 months unbeaten.
That kinda sucks.

I'm going back to Kampar tomorrow but my mum and sis are trying to persuade me to go back on Monday cause we might be stuck in the jam as everyone rushes back home after the Chinese New Year holidays.

I've been spending all my time with my cousin this CNY and it was kinda fun. I taught him to drive his first manual car!!! He hurt my car pretty badly but at least we made it out alive, car and all.

I hope to write more as it seems there are still people visiting. :)

Chinese New Year

Its chinese new year everyone, and I'm here 4am in the morning cause sleep has eluded me currently.

Its a new year and a new beginning I guess, but looking back on the year I've grown in some ways and regressed in others.

To be honest, I'm kinda afraid of moving forward. The uncertainty ahead looks uninviting and I've been procrastinating for far too long yet I see no real urgency in changing that to the dismay of several individuals close to me that look at me with disapproval.

Time... Some may say I've been wasting it away but time flies forward in a constant manner but you are the pilot.

So for now,I'm cruising above the skies enjoying the view and taking a step back to evaluate and to determine the route to my destination. Just because I haven't been moving forward doesn't mean I've been idle.

Dull but enjoyable Christmas!

Christmas this year sucked real badly! Especially if you're spending in Cameron Highlands!
The whole place was utterly oblivious to the fact it was CHRISTMAS!!!

I had fun though! Met some crazy people while going up to a freezing tower in the middle of the night as the wind swept through! Read a really really nice book about love and the pain of living and love.

Hoping for a great New Year's Eve!!!!!

Trying to smile for a better tommorow.

I read somewhere the other day that if you're feeling lonely, listen more than you talk.
As you listen, you're filled with the wonders and beauties of life through different eyes.

Listen to their dreams, let it inspire you.
Listen to their sorrows, let it bring you hope.
Listen to their hearts, let it be a reminder that you are not alone.

All around people are moving on, yet I still find myself rooted at my feet.
I find happiness in their fortunes yet a sense of grieve lingers as I find myself the only one incapable of moving forward.

I am trying to listen, but I cannot hear.